wow...that sounded like me there for a moment! hang in there! just remember all of the truly great artists were poor their entire lives and didn't hit it "big" lol of course that's what people tell me all the time...myself? I'd settle for "mediocre" artist if it meant I could live off the sales of my art!
Yeah check out the latest issue of Juxtapoz. David Choe is just barely starting to make it after a life of drugs, women, jail & basically doing whatever he wanted. Sheesh! I wish I had that life. It sucks being good.